In our subject "Language Research", our professor said that we have to conduct a title defense to have our topic for the project. He asked us to prepare five (5) topics to be defended. Actually, this subject is one of the difficult and challenging subjects we have this semester; and sometimes, we have to sacrifice the time for other subjects so we can comply on the requirements on this subject; and because our professor is very strict when it comes to those.
On the days that I'm preparing my topics, I had the difficulty - as everyone of us is experiencing - but then I remembered that my professor said that our topic can be phenomenal, so I made a title which some are in situational. And here are my prepared topics:
Topic 1: Factors that causes failure of actual teaching of practice teachers.
Topic 2: The Effects of Pronunciation Instruction in learning the English language
Topic 3: Difficulties of elementary students in learning an English language
Topic 4: Learning Cursive Writing: Necessary or Unnecessary
Topic 5: Homogenous Class: Advantages and Disadvantages
On the fist day of the defense, I volunteered to be the third one to defend my topics. At first, I was thinking that my topics were okay and hopefully to also gain a highest score as our professor always states as he can give, and what he gave to the other two who first presented. But I'm not that confident about the having a high grade. I was ready to defend my proposed topics thinking that I will already be finished in this defense, because it's really difficult and pressuring. Then, as I started with my topic one, I have enumerated the details and importance of conducting that topic. When I had finish with the first topic, my professor suddenly said that it was too general, that it may not be connected to the description of our subject (Language Research). Then, I explained that it will focus only on the speaking skills of the practice teachers. So my professor suggested that the title should be changed that it will connect to its focus on to the subject description.
On that moment, I felt somewhat down and upset. Then I still continued with the other topics but my confidence in explaining was somewhat lessened, because I already felt a little sadness in me, that my hope in getting a very good grade was already decreased. After my defense, as I was expecting, I didn't get the highest score our professor can give.
At the end of the day, I'm already reflecting about two things. One is, will I be happy that I became an instrument for my classmates to revise their prepared topics so it will be connected to the subject and they will gain the highest score the professor can really give? Or, I will become very sad and unfortunate for myself about that opportunity to achieve something very good in this difficult subject but then I failed? Another thing that bothered me after that incident was, will I still have another opportunity to gain what I'm hoping in this subject?
_Reflecting_
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